Got the blues.

I’ve been sitting with my guitar singing sappy love songs for the last couple of days. it doesn’t help that one of my walls are painted blue just to remind me of that bluey feeling. True that I miss my girlfriend, and theres nothing I can do about it for now. So ive been downloading smallville, just to kill time. For those who don’t know what smallville is, it’s the story of clark kent before he became superman. Quite a good series. Especially for me cause they’ve taken a small concept and taken it 2 a whole new level. U know me and concepts.

So anyways there was this scene where he’s standing alone at his prom and lana lang(his love of his life) walks in. they play this song called you and me by lifehouse(playin on my blog). I don’t know what happened to me but I was like cheering him on!!! I mean, what the fuck? Here I am, late in the night, sitting at the edge of my bed, arms in the air shouting “fucking, Fucking, Fucking.

When people such as myself, behave in ways that are reminiscent of a camel whose balls have been tickled, certain amount of analysis is required.

Here’s my take on the happy camel…

As fictional as it was, it stirred up memories of when I used to long just to see her face… insecurity of whether she likes me or just being polite. How could a being as perfect as her want to talk to me? She has a choice of soo many guys… what does she see in me…

And the moment when ure lips make contact. The shuddering of your heart. The nervousness, the speech impediment, trying soo hard not to show ure scared…

Lifes got some awesome episodes. For that minute, when Clark sees lana, all I could think of was how thankful I am for those memories, as immature as they were… I know they wont come back cause I am smarter now and the naivety of relationships are long gone…

So if u do see or think about something that makes u wanna do the camel ball tickle. Go ahead and shout your heart out. Its just life giving you a nice subliminal flashback!

I miss you bev!